ready to blow

i think it is one of those days...long, hot, and it feels like it drags on forever. I rarely get frustrated with being a mom but today...i had nothing fun going on...you know those days when all you do is entertain entertain entertain...and then you realize the only thing you have done all day is talk baby talk...Jord said "why don't you go out?" i said there is nothing to do!

so i am rambling about on my blog which really isn't helping very much. I feel kinda despressed today...and not really sure if that is what it is? But even when i had moments while the baby was sleeping today i just simply did nothing...boring! I thought i should really get the house cleaned up because we are trying to sell! But i had no energy to do that...and i kinda feel a little hopeless about it really. It seems strange that we had our house on the market for two weeks and haven't had even one call at all. i am not sure if that is normal even if your real estate agent is on vacation or not? I wonder if we won't be able to sell, that kinda worries me because I think it would be easier to have a change before we move into community. And hell i don't think we could manage here it just isn't the right set up...but to be honest i really don't want to clean and look after the house for months and months while we try and sell it. i would rather sell it so that it moves quickly!

Anyways that is my rant, the real hard part is that when i feel this way...i always get angry and frustrated and mad...instead of just maybe crying. the other hard part is the person that i take the frustration out on is usually Jord...so sorry ahead of time k!

the ready to blow mother