well we are in our third week at camp...the beauty about being here has been one thing...our friends Jude and Cheryl...it has been such a great experience here because of them and there two little girls...it is funny how things work out...we just ended up having our last year at camp be really enjoyable even though it is hard because we are leaving...it has been a real blast because of this family...
I appreciate there humor, truthfulness and friendship...
Camp will be hard to say goodbye too in a few weeks, but it will also be a huge chapter in our lives that we are able to close and start new...
There are already sad feelings around leaving but for me it will be more sad that we have made a great friendship with our neighbours and will miss them dearly...
so as i report on our experiences here there has been some exciting things happening with Aubrey...one she is able to be social with lots of people and two she now turns over as of two weeks ago...i think it is somewhere around June 30th or so...and she cut a tooth July 2nd...she is growing so fast and doing all new things...like reaching for me when i go to pick her up and smiling when she sees me and Jord...(that is something she has been doing for a while but hey why not mention it).
I have also thoroughly enjoyed being here because the pics that i have been able to take of the beautiful sunsets that we get here... cute kids that i love to shoot pics of...
Camp is good and alright and hard some days but i guess today this is a day that i appreciate what it has to offer
cheers
Jd
Dear Jord
I know this week has been crazy…to start off you are an amazing father and great at your job…the balance of the two can be hard I know…but I love you very much…
I would really love you to know that I really feel supported as the adjustment for me here has been hard…you are always patient and kind…and never putting yourself first…sometimes I do need a swift kick in the ass and other times I need your love and kindness…
I love you very much and think you make a great
Dad, husband and Boss…
Your little ladies
Jill and Aubrey
I would really love you to know that I really feel supported as the adjustment for me here has been hard…you are always patient and kind…and never putting yourself first…sometimes I do need a swift kick in the ass and other times I need your love and kindness…
I love you very much and think you make a great
Dad, husband and Boss…
Your little ladies
Jill and Aubrey
Birthday "bash" or "bust"
26, twenty six...
so far it is a bust...never have i ever really enjoyed my birthday being in June...no one to celebreate with at camp...not the place because everyone is going about there business...jord has something plannned this afternoon so I am looking forward to that...well i got the first call just in the middle of my birthday or bust rant...and it was someone to see how Jord's father day went...not even a happy birthday to you...weird...
In my house growing up birthdays were a big deal...we would wake up early in the morning and open presents and then the whole day we couldn't wait to get home to have that amazing birthday cake...
Not a lot of fun spending your birthday in meeting and with 40 people that don't know you very well...
I should say who cares but i guess each year i hope it gets better you know... that being here would be alright when i am far away from all the family and friends that i would like to spend my birthday with...but each year it just is a bust...presents or not i am just not where i would like to be...in the company of family...on my own couch...watering my garden...laughing and a dumb movie i rented that kinda thing!
signing off...kinda sounding a little depressed to be here
so far it is a bust...never have i ever really enjoyed my birthday being in June...no one to celebreate with at camp...not the place because everyone is going about there business...jord has something plannned this afternoon so I am looking forward to that...well i got the first call just in the middle of my birthday or bust rant...and it was someone to see how Jord's father day went...not even a happy birthday to you...weird...
In my house growing up birthdays were a big deal...we would wake up early in the morning and open presents and then the whole day we couldn't wait to get home to have that amazing birthday cake...
Not a lot of fun spending your birthday in meeting and with 40 people that don't know you very well...
I should say who cares but i guess each year i hope it gets better you know... that being here would be alright when i am far away from all the family and friends that i would like to spend my birthday with...but each year it just is a bust...presents or not i am just not where i would like to be...in the company of family...on my own couch...watering my garden...laughing and a dumb movie i rented that kinda thing!
signing off...kinda sounding a little depressed to be here
we have moved north
we have arrived...not really the best trip i have ever had but we made it and have been here three days...they feel like really long days because there is only so much i can do in a day but hey i guess it will get better...
For those of you who know jordan and I you know that it takes a lot of effort to actualely pack upand leave Hamilton because we really love it there...we love the neighbours the people the smells and the crazy things that happen there...
Living here is a bubble one that we are oh so ready to burst out of...It is a bitter sweat thing that we are leaving...sad, good, all kinds of emotions are attached to this change...
most of all though i will get my husband back...and Aubrey will get her father...most of the six weeks that we spend up here is going to be hard because we (me and Bre) will only get pockets of time to spend with Jord...distractions and people needing him will be the theme this summer...now i know that when you become a pastor it is crazy too...but etleast I will have my friends and family that i love close by.
I am really looking forward to taking more pictures and i have really loved this new expression i have found... i was never really artistic in the sense ( i could paint and draw) i was more artistic with my photography and interior design passions...now that i have found one of these to be very fullfilling i can't get enough...i already miss home because there i had a computer that i could do editing on and spend hours being creative with my photos...here i can't even up load them onto a computer...and i also love taking pics of people and there is only few people here? Another couple is living in the basement appartment which is so fantastic...they have two little girls which i can't wait to take a shoot of...that has been the hightlight of being here so far...etleast they are close by...
Anyhow, this is what we are up to know...I look forward to seeing the summer move quickly...but really i am always looking forward to what is next...
happy fathers day to my husband whom i love you are a great daddy...
peace out from the north
For those of you who know jordan and I you know that it takes a lot of effort to actualely pack upand leave Hamilton because we really love it there...we love the neighbours the people the smells and the crazy things that happen there...
Living here is a bubble one that we are oh so ready to burst out of...It is a bitter sweat thing that we are leaving...sad, good, all kinds of emotions are attached to this change...
most of all though i will get my husband back...and Aubrey will get her father...most of the six weeks that we spend up here is going to be hard because we (me and Bre) will only get pockets of time to spend with Jord...distractions and people needing him will be the theme this summer...now i know that when you become a pastor it is crazy too...but etleast I will have my friends and family that i love close by.
I am really looking forward to taking more pictures and i have really loved this new expression i have found... i was never really artistic in the sense ( i could paint and draw) i was more artistic with my photography and interior design passions...now that i have found one of these to be very fullfilling i can't get enough...i already miss home because there i had a computer that i could do editing on and spend hours being creative with my photos...here i can't even up load them onto a computer...and i also love taking pics of people and there is only few people here? Another couple is living in the basement appartment which is so fantastic...they have two little girls which i can't wait to take a shoot of...that has been the hightlight of being here so far...etleast they are close by...
Anyhow, this is what we are up to know...I look forward to seeing the summer move quickly...but really i am always looking forward to what is next...
happy fathers day to my husband whom i love you are a great daddy...
peace out from the north
the swing
this photo is just so adorable...first off she is way to small to be in that swing...but the way her hair is and her eyes looking up it just melts my heart...it is such a privledge to be a mom... i tell Aubrey all the time that i would love it if she could stay small...remember the times we had to cuddle and laugh together...but i think she will find her own way...her own voice...and i really can't wait to see who she will become.
all moms out there can appreciate how special your time is with your little one...because they are only this little for so long..
community
community is it good? or is it bad? and when do we really experience true community? I would suggest it is only when we allow our selves to be changed by our experiences of people around us...to be good LISTENERS AND HEARERS of what people are telling us. We should no longer try and isolate people by bad humor, and " i told you so's" we shouldn't allow sarcasim, making fun of people and just plan hostile behaviours part of our daily exsistance because it just doesn't allow for true community. What isolates people is gay jokes, fat jokes, your too femaine jokes, and the list goes on. I must admit i was really senstive to these things before...but over the last year I have really allowed them to start becoming a part of my vocab again...and ashamed i admit that this is not community building of Christ living at all. Infact i am just like everyone else who isolates people can't talk seriously and is afraid of comfronting the people that say and do these types of things instead what is suppose to be a safe community.
we should never refer to people as that fat person, the ugly guy...the women who smells and so on and so forth...it is just not right and i stand frustrated with myself that i have changed who i was to someone who has for sure not allowed people to feel loved and cared for by the words that i have spoken...so lets clean up and get our mouth in check and we will see what a difference we can make by being inlcusive, loving, and kind.
we should never refer to people as that fat person, the ugly guy...the women who smells and so on and so forth...it is just not right and i stand frustrated with myself that i have changed who i was to someone who has for sure not allowed people to feel loved and cared for by the words that i have spoken...so lets clean up and get our mouth in check and we will see what a difference we can make by being inlcusive, loving, and kind.
planted a garden last night
i did the unthinkable really? I planted a garden even though I thought that i wouldn't because we are selling our house. But hey what the hell it was so much fun really and i just love the relaxation of doing something i love.
I did another unthinkable as well...i went to watch Jordan play ultimate frisbee and i ended up subing in for a couple of points because the team was short on girls. I can't run at all...it was so discouraging thing. I used to always be good of even better at sports...one year I won athlete of the year....that is a real laughing matter now. I can barely do a fligh of stairs without dying. So i decided i need to get more active and i think it is a good goal... i know it takes a long time to get your body back to normal but i wasn't expecting it would take a year...and at the rate i am going it may take a year.
from a mother who can't quiet believe she isn't and athlete anymore!
I did another unthinkable as well...i went to watch Jordan play ultimate frisbee and i ended up subing in for a couple of points because the team was short on girls. I can't run at all...it was so discouraging thing. I used to always be good of even better at sports...one year I won athlete of the year....that is a real laughing matter now. I can barely do a fligh of stairs without dying. So i decided i need to get more active and i think it is a good goal... i know it takes a long time to get your body back to normal but i wasn't expecting it would take a year...and at the rate i am going it may take a year.
from a mother who can't quiet believe she isn't and athlete anymore!
moving???
So our house has been for sale for three weeks? And we haven't had one person through...i am really dying to know what the issue is for real....but i am pretty sure i have a good guess...the hood...yep that is right...we live in it and it is hard to get out of...really we don't want to leave so much as we would really like to get a house that suites community living better. I wish there was some great future in selling this house but i know that it will be hard and the right person needs to be interested. So if you can pray that we get some action that would be great.
or maybe even pray that it does go better than it has....it is hard keeping a house up for nothing...
cheers from the hood
or maybe even pray that it does go better than it has....it is hard keeping a house up for nothing...
cheers from the hood
ready to blow
i think it is one of those days...long, hot, and it feels like it drags on forever. I rarely get frustrated with being a mom but today...i had nothing fun going on...you know those days when all you do is entertain entertain entertain...and then you realize the only thing you have done all day is talk baby talk...Jord said "why don't you go out?" i said there is nothing to do!
so i am rambling about on my blog which really isn't helping very much. I feel kinda despressed today...and not really sure if that is what it is? But even when i had moments while the baby was sleeping today i just simply did nothing...boring! I thought i should really get the house cleaned up because we are trying to sell! But i had no energy to do that...and i kinda feel a little hopeless about it really. It seems strange that we had our house on the market for two weeks and haven't had even one call at all. i am not sure if that is normal even if your real estate agent is on vacation or not? I wonder if we won't be able to sell, that kinda worries me because I think it would be easier to have a change before we move into community. And hell i don't think we could manage here it just isn't the right set up...but to be honest i really don't want to clean and look after the house for months and months while we try and sell it. i would rather sell it so that it moves quickly!
Anyways that is my rant, the real hard part is that when i feel this way...i always get angry and frustrated and mad...instead of just maybe crying. the other hard part is the person that i take the frustration out on is usually Jord...so sorry ahead of time k!
the ready to blow mother
so i am rambling about on my blog which really isn't helping very much. I feel kinda despressed today...and not really sure if that is what it is? But even when i had moments while the baby was sleeping today i just simply did nothing...boring! I thought i should really get the house cleaned up because we are trying to sell! But i had no energy to do that...and i kinda feel a little hopeless about it really. It seems strange that we had our house on the market for two weeks and haven't had even one call at all. i am not sure if that is normal even if your real estate agent is on vacation or not? I wonder if we won't be able to sell, that kinda worries me because I think it would be easier to have a change before we move into community. And hell i don't think we could manage here it just isn't the right set up...but to be honest i really don't want to clean and look after the house for months and months while we try and sell it. i would rather sell it so that it moves quickly!
Anyways that is my rant, the real hard part is that when i feel this way...i always get angry and frustrated and mad...instead of just maybe crying. the other hard part is the person that i take the frustration out on is usually Jord...so sorry ahead of time k!
the ready to blow mother
walking in hamilton
Jordan and I went for a walk yesterday...and we ran into a fight breaking out at a local bar! this guy just slapped a man across the face and was ready to kick his face in and then it broke up...nothing like it really, the smell of hamilton in the air fighting happening in the local bar...really lovely. i think next time i go for a walk i might bring my camera...i mean there was great action that all of you could have enjoyed with me!!! ha ha ha...it was actually really disturbing and weird for around 7:30 at night. i had little aubrey on the front of me in a little carrier and Jord was walking the dog...i think the man that was attacked was the owner of the bar? but i am not 1oo%. Anyhow that was the excitment for us yesterday on James street.
cheers to another crazy day in the hammer
cheers to another crazy day in the hammer
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